Wednesday already?!

So this week is flying by and today is a perfect example of a day I just wanna shut down and sleep.

Not only do I feel like I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off but the following things are also happening:

1. Astro is seemingly slower than usual I feel.
2. I have 24 cupsized baked goods to bake, frost and package before tomorrow.
3. I have 3 more dinners to make. Luckily 1 is a chili and can be made at the same time as the other two. This will be my adventure tomorrow.
4. I had an interview today, I feel it in no way went well.
5. It's raining so essentially I'm exhausted
6. Mandy's going away party is tonight and I so wanna go but am way too tired but I'm going anyway.
7. My stomach hurts
8. I want one of the cupcakes I made.
9. I really want to have some stewed tomatoes and chickpeas but naaaahhh can't since I a) have no money, b) no will to go out into the rain and c) have a bajillion other things to do.
10. I completely forgot to do a food form for our BBQ that apparently needs to be in 30 days prior. It's on Friday.
11. Still no way to pay rent.
12. We're almost out of dish soap, but again, no money
13. I'm extremely worried about the well being of my best friend who is going through some major stress right now.
14. All I want to do is sleep when I can't and be awake when I can.
15. My face is like an acne machine right now and I feel very unpretty.
16. I cannot find my camera and therefore cannot take photos of my creations.
17. I have to phone the lady who interviewed me with references ASAP.
18. I'm so sleepy in case you've not guessed
19. I'm also very sore.
20. I guess I'm going to go back to cooking.

Also...my head is destroying itself over nothing. Completely nothing. I find it quite baffling actually. I mean seriously, who cares about what happens or what people say or anything!

rawr. fustrated.

I seriously cannot believe its already Wednesday. What happened to my week?!

Things I know now that I didn't know before 5am.

1. Running at 5:30am when I can't sleep just to watch the sun come up is extremely liberating and just plain beautiful.

2. When making a smoothie - apple juice is not a good juice. Especially when yogurt is involved.

3. Just because my peanut butter hangs out in the fridge doesn't mean I should use more. Especially when it heats up and spills all over me as I try and eat my bagel.

4. Some weird power outage in my room occurred last night causing my computer to shut off, an unset alarm on my clock to go off and the cd in my cd player to start playing.

5. When I lay down and close my eyes, it feels like I'm spinning. I Only ever spin clockwise.

That's all.

Saturday Night = Cooking, Reveling and Staying Put!

What a week, well since Wednesday.

So lets see Thursday what did I do... I baked, had meetings and went grocery shopping!

Thursday was a very good day. I had a bunch of fun with James when we went shopping. Who knew he was so witty. Anywho, got all my stuffs for cooking this weekend and then we went for dinner and I came home to bake.

Friday was sooo fun but I'm feeling slightly blah today because of it. I dropped off some orders and made some moolah which was pretty awesome. Then Karen, Miche and me went out. We stopped by the Fox to crash the Eng pub crawl. I mean not crash it but see some friends and perhaps some people who didn't necessarily want to see me.

All in all, it went well. Slightly awkward but well none the less. Someone still would probably rather I didn't exist but you know what, I don't really care anymore. We've seen each other and that killed the elephant so now I can do what I want and not feel awkward.

After the fox we went back to Michelle's and finished getting ready for our Starlight adventure. We go to Starlight, have a drink, dance like crazy, get hit on by crazy boys, get bought some drinks, I shamelessly promote my bakery to anyone who will listen, we dance some more and quickly walk home. Luckily for me, James was a nice guy and decided to drive me home from Michelle's. That walk from her house up King street at 2:30am isn't so comforting to think of.

Here is a sample of shinnanigans...

As for today, I finally made it out of bed at 11:30 and it didn't feel like the room was spinning anymore. I've been cooking up a storm since. I made stew and this yummy pilau goodness. Check out the Bakery blog for a photo.

Mmmm... my head is a swimmin' about a bunch of things and I should probably keep cooking. I'm not feeling so great so it will be an early sleep for me tonight.

Keep it real kids.

Wednesdays are fun times!

unce unce unce.... hump day is upon us!

New and exciting news...well not really but still very exciting to me!

My first bakery order is in, made and delivered. Right now there is a very cute and small girl eating a dozen chocolate cupcakes hopefully in a state of bliss and delight. At least I hope so...

2nd order is in and on the docket for tomorrow - 12 banana nut muffins

3rd order is in as well and planned for tomorrow too - 1 banana graham cracker crumble loaf with oatmeal.

4th order is in the works as we speak - 7 dinners and a meal plan.

Busy busy busy.

Today.... OH today is hump day!
-Free cookies, Free condoms, Epic awesome. BUGS lounge ESC 102A 11:30-1:30pm
-Science Convocation is his afternoon (not like I'm graduating)
-SYTYCD party tonight at KB's
-Need to finish James' meal plan ASAP

Tomorrow!
-Departmental Meeting - gotta ask for some alcohol
-BUGS exec meeting
-Grocery Shoppin' with James'
-Bakin' awesomeness for Kbad and Robbo

Mmmm... bout it. Gonna go shower... Paramore is on itunes. Swoon.

It's up! Place your orders, tell your friends! I need some money, You need some cake!

So guys,

win-win.

You get cake etc. I get money.

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For shiz, go crazy.

Thursday Window Sunshine

9:50am already...

The past two hours have just flew by. Seems like my days are going by quicker and quicker as the week goes by. Maybe it's a subconscious thing. I'm so paranoid about the job situation that I'm losing time every second (and not in the literal sense). Since I had the shittiest sleep of life ever last night, I'm taking today off.

No thinking about jobs, no worrying about finances and all that good stuff. I think I may die if I don't.

So what highlights are planned for today?

Well, I had banana pancakes this morning for breakfast. They were yummy. I made too much though. Umm what else? Oh, its super nice out. I'm probably going to sit in my window for as long as my bony butt allows me. Perhaps I will read my book, maybe some more laundry via hand wash? I definitely need to do my dishes. Maybe I will watch a movie.

Speaking of movies, I started watching Gundam Wing again... oh god, its so much better this time around. Last time I watched the series I was 12 so yeah, 10 years later (ewww 10...) it's a bazillion times more amazing. I'm still so in love with all of those boys - especially Trowa, those bangs are just so dashing.

Yeah ok, I'ma bounce. I may be back later for entry #2... if I get bored (which is unlikely).

peaceout homes.

Picture me working at a candy store?

The image is even too sweet for me to imagine. I'd take it in an instance though.

Job search is still on... I've even resorted to washing my clothes in my bathtub so I don't have to waste money on laundry machines and what not. I mean, my clothes are a little more stretched out, my back hurts a little more, but hell I've become awfully stingy on what is considered dirty now and my iron has become a very good friend.

Went for a beer, which turned into an iced tea, which turned into 4 + nachos with Chantal (Hi Chantal!!) yesterday afternoon. Was lovely as anticipated, even if it was slightly chilly. At least I got my vitamin D. It was just nice to meet up again and hang out. It means a bunch to me. With Ami in the states and Keri and Mel at home and so busy with their lives it's nice to have someone I can look at like a big sister. We were joined by the Polak for a bit and I swear if I had a running tally going of how many times he said fuck I would probably be at like 50. It's pretty damn amazing. It felt good to talk to someone about all the crap I'm dealing with right now. While all my friends do an amazing job its just nice to get a 3rd party opinion.

So yeah, that went well.

Came home, washed more clothes in the tub (whites this time). Hung out with Court for a bit. She was away on workshop for ESQ for 2 days so I was happy she came home so we could gab. Didn't last long though, I was sleepy, she was sleepy. We went to sleep.

I found this cool site yesterday while playing web sudoku called Lumiosity I think. It's all brain development exercises. You should probably google it. It's an awesome time waster.

What else, what else.

OH! Found a $5 walking to school so I could go print off more resumes and buy a bagel. Was yummy. Oh white bread... I crave you so often. Theres a school in Toronto that is a training school for astrologers. I may look into it more if I can ever find time to sit down and train properly. I have OLT tonight, and tomorrow night too.

Holy Jesus, I cannot believe it's already Wednesday. Time flies when you're unemployed.

FML for shiz.

Playing in iTunes

I will never be, I will never be tall. Tied up, not a miracle in days. Have you felt like this before?

I'm writing you to catch you up on places I've been. Slowly the pen touches paper, in the guidance of the words that you write.

I took the train back, back to where I came from. Note to self, we're running on empty. I was always late, you never afraid that we could be falling. I've got the lights turned off, the door is locked, the bedroom tv's on. Red wine and sleeping pills, help me get back to your arms. There's something about the way you looked at me, let me think for a moment that you and I were meant to be. Love took me by the hand, love took me by surprise. Forget the notion that our emotions can be swept away.

I tried to do handstands for you, I tried to do headstands for you, every time I fell on you. So I'll cross my heart and hope to die, before I have the chance to lie to you my dear who I wish no harm but I know in the end this will turn out wrong. I want to live life and never be cruel. Where do you go, with your broken heart in tow? Did you forget that I was even alive?

Don't think too hard if you think it hurts that bad. I hate to see you cry, lying there in that position. Bright just like the stars above me...

Hold it, I'm about to drop off, let me tell you my last thought.

Today was a pretty day, no disappointments, no expectations on your whereabouts.