I'm watching the Princess Diaries 2 right now and after being single for a very content and quick passing 10 months (give or take a few depending on who is being asked), I'm wondering will I ever find the one for me? Will I ever find that beautiful blue eyed boy who will infuriate me so much yet at the same time make my heart skip? Will I find the man who will win my heart forever and be my best friend? Will I find that spark that will let me know this is the one person I'll never second guess, will always protect and defend me, and won't mind if I snore (which I currently don't!).
Being 21 I'm not overly worried about not finding someone. I have put a lot of thought into it though. I still feel like I'm 17. I never did the high school dating thing and was in my first relationship until last May. I've limited dating experience and I don't exactly know what it is I need to do to change that.
Don't get me wrong, I'm quite content on my own. I don't have to explain my actions to anyone, be responsible for anyone but myself, or come home to anyone. Some people would say that is horrible and life is incomplete, but right now my focus is only on me. I don't feel helpless, alone, or dependent on anyone right now. I could pick up tomorrow and if I wanted to, move away without having to consult anyone. I'd say that in itself is pretty amazing. At the same time though, not waking up on my own would be nice.
I'm just concerned that when I'm ready to consider another persons opinion on all matters, they won't be there...
Stupid Disney, I'm wondering if these types of relationships even exist.
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