contemplating again

Heart = open today.

The wind kept blowing my tarot cards all over my bed this morning. It didn't phase me much... until I started noticing a pattern. Not like I pretend to know what it means. Nonetheless was quite strange. Knight of swords, 4 of cups, King of wands, 9 of swords, 8 of cups and the strength card. All of them kept blowing out. Each time I would pick them up and put them back on the deck pile. After the 2nd time I figured I'd shuffle them in. Each time they blew onto my bed, those cards would blow out. Mind you, other cards did as well, but those ones always popped out. I'm not sure what the number cards and the strength card entail but the Knight and King card both are indicative of a Man and young man. Would you say we're young adults still or do we classify as men and women now? If not what age does that change at?

Anywho, still no job. It's stripping away layers internally, making it impossible to perform proper mental processes, and have a life. I wake up and think about how I don't have a job. I look for jobs online and think about how I don't have a job. I phone places and think about how I don't have a job. I go to shower and I think of how I don't have a job. I go pee and I think of how I am jobless. I make dinner etc. I'm sure you get the idea. It's constantly on my mind. Two applications in at the WPIRG office so hopefully I at least get an interview for one of them.

Frosh leader interviews are this Saturday! FuPo interviews are this Saturday! Mama and David + the K-man are coming up this Saturday! Saturday will be a busy day I believe. Bah, speaking of frosh week (I'm so excited) I have OLT this week. OLT = Orientation leader training. I wish I had got into this in 2nd year so I didn't have to feel so retardedly old during the sessions. Everyone else is like " a hahaha, ^_^, I'm in 2A". Which makes me want to kill myself. Don't get me wrong, I love the enthusiasm and have nothing against the younger years (for srs!) but fuck me. I'm like "Oh, ha ha... I'm in 4A". Some nice guy made me feel better yesterday though because he was all like "Are you sure you're in Science?" and I was like "Uh, yeah?" and he was like "They're not that many pretty girls in Science!". I am hoping he meant it as in I'm pretty not that I was one of the ugly girls in Science. Health and Safety tonight! I will now know what to do if one of my frosh is being sexually harassed or under the influence of ALCOHOOOL.

What else is new? Oh the BUGS general meeting is on Thursday. Gotta order some funky pizza tomorrow. I'm excited.

New metric album = win
New phoenix album = win
3OH!3 album = win

Other new things:
1.I torrented for the 1st time the other day. That's a big effin' deal.
2.It's been a week since the BIG BUGS CLEAN. The office still looks nice. Lived in, but nice.
3. Court and I went to Vincenzo's deli on Saturday.... fantabulous.

That's about it.
I'm gonna go look up what those cards mean. It's been bothering me all day. However, I have OLT first, guess it will have to wait until I get home.

Peace out homes.